Dear Sofia,
It seems only yesterday Daddy and I decided we were ready to have a baby. Now we've reached the point where you could be here any day. I'm completely terrified! At nights, I lay in bed (listening to Daddy snore) wondering if tonight's going to be "the night"...wondering if I'm going to be good enough. My days are spent thinking about how smart and beautiful you're going to be. About how I'm going to do your hair and how I'm going to have you matching from head to toe...how I hope you'll dance when there's music playing and sing in the car. I've thought about our Christmases together, and have thought about different themes for your birthday parties! Not to mention how nervous I am that your room won't be ready by the time of your arrival! yikes!!!
There's not one day that i don't wonder if you know how much I love you. I want you to feel like you have it all even if I can't give you all the material goods you'll want. There is so much in this life that i want to show you. So much I want to share. i keep thinking of the lessons I've learned and what will be the best way to teach them to you. I might not always be the best mother. Somedays I won't even come close! I'll get mad at you when I'm having a bad day, I'll forget your best friends name, I might let you watch too much TV or let you eat too much junk food. There are hundreds of things I could do wrong. I just want you to know, that even when I'm drowning in all the things I'm not doing right, I'll still be trying. I will spend the rest of my life trying to ensure that your life is the best it can be.
I'm not perfect, it's something you'll learn.Daddy isn't perfect either. But I can guarantee you that we'll do our best to raise you right. To teach you the difference between right and wrong. Even if sometimes you might not think our approach is right, we will always give you the reason for the lesson not just the point. If you ever have to wonder why you're in trouble, it's a sure sign we're doing wrong.
You will be here in less than six weeks, and I can't wait to meet you! six weeks seems like a life time before i can hold you, and kiss you, and thank you for changing my life, but feeling you explore the little world you have inside my belly fills me with so much joy and although your kicks are so strong that i can barely breathe, I can't help but smile each time my belly is completely deformed every time you wiggle around.
Daddy and I talk about what you'll look like, and what things we can't wait to teach you! He wants you to play sports, and watch football with him on Sundays. I want you to dance and be the girliest girl ever and wear pink everyday! Whatever you do, we both know you'll be an incredible beauty and i know that you will own Daddy in ways no one else in the world (even me) can compete with! And even though he says it won't be like that, I can see in his face that he knows you'll have him wrapped around your little finger.I hope you feel (already) just how important you are to me. Your happiness is my lifes' work. Already, you're my real, true pride and joy...and you haven't even taken your first breath yet! Everything you do each moment of your life, from the first instant I see your face, will bring more fulfillment to my life than anything I've experienced thus far! Sofia, I love you more than words can ever describe and i can't tell you how lucky and blessed I am to call you mine. I love you princess.
Love always and forever,
Mom.
P.S. Don't grow up too fast!
