Today I have a 5 month old.

I can almost feel my heart shiver inside my chest as my eyes fill up  with tears when I think about how fast these five months have gone  by....the phrase "They grow up so fast"absolutely terrifies me! *sigh*

Seeing Sofia grow and discover this world with such  enthusiasm brings an indescribable amount of joy into my heart. Seeing  her smile at everything and everyone brings me hope for a better world  for my daughter and her future.

Looking through pictures, I can't  believe it's the same baby I left the hospital with. She's an incredibly  well behaved and happy baby. She has been since day one. And I'm not  just saying it because she's my daughter. She's sleeping through the night, morning AND early afternoon!!! Yep, she sleeps 11-13 hours STRAIGHT! I put her down to bed at 11-11:30pm  and wakes up between 11-12:30 the next day. She falls asleep all on her  own and cries when I try to keep her in my arms or bed because I want  her to sleep with me. She loves her crib and I'd like to think that she'll stay this small forever just so she can sleep in it all of her  life. *crosses fingers*

She's  more alert and curious about  her surroundings. She's drooling like crazy (she's probably teething but  I'm oblivious to the fact that this precious toothless smile will  someday have teeth).

She loves her toys, mostly her rattles. She'd rather chew on her blankies and plush toys than plastic teething toys. Oh, and she nibbles on her two little fingers all day long.

Her  hair is now long enough to do piggy tails.

 She finally found her  feet,which has made diaper changing much more complicated, yet seeing  her chew on her little tootsies is priceless. She's outgrown her 6 month  clothes and although 9 month clothes are still a little too big, I know that  like the rest of her clothes, she'll wear them once and by the time they  make it throughout the wash, folded and back to her dresser, she'll  already have outgrown them. She can roll over to her side. Im patiently waiting for the day  she rolls over all the way. She loves her baths and giggles  cracks up every time I change her clothes and diapers. It's the sweetest sound to  my ears.

I wish there was something bad I had to say about her so I could give her grief about it when she's older.
I  guess the only thing is that i wish she wasn't growing up so fast so I  wouldn't I feel like I'm always in a hurry to get to know my baby.



A Letter From Mommy

November 24th, 2010.

              Dear Sofia,
                    It seems only yesterday Daddy and I decided we were ready to have a baby. Now we've reached the point where you could be here any day. I'm completely terrified! At nights, I lay in bed (listening to Daddy snore) wondering if tonight's going to be "the night"...wondering if I'm going to be good enough. My days are spent thinking about how smart and beautiful you're going to be. About how I'm going to do your hair and how I'm going to have you matching from head to toe...how I hope you'll dance when there's music playing and sing in the car. I've thought about our Christmases together, and have thought about different themes for your birthday parties! Not to mention how nervous I am that your room won't be ready by the time of your arrival! yikes!!! 
There's not one day that i don't wonder if you know how much I love you. I want you to feel like you have it all even if I can't give you all the material goods you'll want. There is so much in this life that i want to show you. So much I want to share. i keep thinking of the lessons I've learned and what will be the best way to teach them to you. I might not always be the best mother. Somedays I won't even come close! I'll get mad at you when I'm having a bad day, I'll forget your best friends name, I might let you watch too much TV or let you eat too much junk food. There are hundreds of things I could do wrong. I just want you to know, that even when I'm drowning in all the things I'm not doing right, I'll still be trying. I will spend the rest of my life trying to ensure that your life is the best it can be.
I'm not perfect, it's something you'll learn.Daddy isn't perfect either. But I can guarantee you that we'll do our best to raise you right. To teach you the difference between right and wrong. Even if sometimes you might not think our approach is right, we will always give you the reason for the lesson not just the point. If you ever have to wonder why you're in trouble, it's a sure sign we're doing wrong.

You will be here in less than six weeks, and I can't wait to meet you! six weeks seems like a life time before i can hold you, and kiss you, and thank you for changing my life, but feeling you explore the little world you have inside my belly fills me with so much joy and although your kicks are so strong that i can barely breathe, I can't help but smile each time my belly is completely deformed every time you wiggle around.Daddy and I talk about what you'll look like, and what things we can't wait to teach you! He wants you to play sports, and watch football with him on Sundays. I want you to dance and be the girliest girl ever and wear pink everyday! Whatever you do, we both know you'll be an incredible beauty and i know that you will own Daddy in ways no one else in the world (even me) can compete with! And even though he says it won't be like that, I can see in his face that he knows you'll have him wrapped around your little finger.I hope you feel (already) just how important you are to me. Your happiness is my lifes' work. Already, you're my real, true pride and joy...and you haven't even taken your first breath yet! Everything you do each moment of your life, from the first instant I see your face, will bring more fulfillment to my life than anything I've experienced thus far! Sofia, I love you more than words can ever describe and i can't tell you how lucky and blessed I am to call you mine. I love you princess.

                                 Love always and forever,
                                                      Mom.
P.S. Don't grow up too fast!